♥ Filled With Desire ♥

Psalm 84 has to be one of my favorites of all the Psalms. The entire Psalm just delves into the fact that those who trust in God, will be blessed. Though it's only 12 verses long, after reading it, I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed with the beauty, truth, and how challenging it is.

Verse 2 is probably my favorite, both because of what it tells me about the person who wrote it, and also because it challenges me.
"My soul longeth, yea, even fainteth for the courts of the Lord: my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God." - Psalm 84:2
Pretty passionate stuff. I want this passion to fully take precedence in my own heart. I have, at times, tasted a little of this burning desire, and all I can say is: I want more!
I mean, wouldn't you? Looking at this verse is looking into the heart of a person who was wholly and truly in a deep love with their Savior. The coveted the Lord's love and goodness to them. They were so ingrained with the Lord, that they had a consistent yearning for Him. Something from the heart is a deep seated desire. Their soul longed for the Lord, and their heart and flesh cried for the living God.
I think that is a beautiful specification: the living God. This wasn't about some idol, some pagan god that had no feeling, no living and humane attributes. This longing was for the God that yearned for this person as much, (actually, more) as this person yearned for Him. This wasn't an unquenchable desire for some useless stone, but a realistic longing for the God who would someday take this person home to Heaven, to dwell with Him forever.
I want that same passion. That same yearning, yearning to be with my Lord, my Savior. I want that desire, passion, and longing to be in my own soul and heart. To be so in love with the Lord of my salvation, that my every thought is full of Him. It is something I am learning, but something that I don't think I'll ever truly grasp. Something that would make this life so much better, and yet, so much harder.
Harder because every moment spent here on earth is one moment not spent in eternal bliss with Him. Better because being so integrated with God, would give me some of that bliss while I am here.
I don't deserve it, of course. None of us do. We don't value God's unconditional love to us nearly enough... The way that mankind treats Him, would turn everyone of our selfish hearts into a hard barren place were we to experience it.
But God's love is unconditional, and after all I've done against Him...
He still loves me.